I kinda always knew I’d end up your ex-girlfriend
I kinda always knew I’d end up your ex-girlfriend
I kinda always knew I’d end up your ex-girlfriend
I hope I hold a special place with the rest of them
And you know it makes me sick to be on that list
But I should have thought of that before we kissed

You say you’re gonna burn before you mellow
I will be the one to burn you
Why’d you have to go and pick me?
When you knew that we were different, completely

I kinda always knew I’d end up your ex-girlfriend
I kinda always knew I’d end up your ex-girlfriend
I hope I hold a special place with the rest of them
I kinda always knew I’d end up your ex-girlfriend

I’m another ex-girlfriend on your list
But I should have thought of that before we kissed

Your wildness scares me
So does your freedom
You say you can’t stand the restrictions
I find myself trying to change you
If you were meant to be my lover I wouldn’t have to

And I feel so mean, I feel in between
‘Cause I’m about to give you away

I kinda always knew I’d end up your ex-girlfriend (for someone else to take)
I kinda always knew I’d end up your ex-girlfriend (am I making a mistake?)
I hope I hold a special place with the rest of them (all the time that we wasted)
I kinda always knew I’d end up your ex-girl, friend

I’m another ex-girlfriend on your list
But I should have thought of that before we kissed
I’m another ex-girlfriend on your list
But I should have thought of that before we kissed

I’m about to give you away for someone else to take
I’m about to give you away for someone else to take

We keep repeating mistakes for souvenirs
And we’ve been in between the days for years
And I know that when I see you I’m going to die
I know I’m going to want you and you know why
It’s going to kill me to see you with the next girl
‘Cause I’m the most gorgeously jealous kind of ex-girl

But I should have thought of that before we kissed…

I kinda always knew I’d end up your ex-girlfriend
I kinda always knew I’d end up your ex-girlfriend
I hope I hold a special place with the rest of them
I kinda always knew I’d end up your ex-girlfriend

I’m another ex-girlfriend on your list
But I should have thought of that before we kissed
I’m another ex-girlfriend on your list
But I should have thought of that before we kissed

You who never arrived
in my arms, Beloved, who were lost
from the start,
I don’t even know what songs
would please you. I have given up trying
to recognize you in the surging wave of the next
moment. All the immense
images in me– the far-off, deeply-felt landscape,
cities, towers, and bridges, and unsuspected
turns in the path,
and those powerful lands that were once
pulsing with the life of the gods-
all rise within me to mean
you, who forever elude me.

You, Beloved, who are all
the gardens I have ever gazed at,
longing. An open window
in a country house–, and you almost
stepped out, pensive, to meet me.
Streets that I chanced upon,–
you had just walked down them and vanished.
And sometimes, in a shop, the mirrors
were still dizzy with your presence and, startled,
gave back my too-sudden image. Who knows?
perhaps the same bird echoed through both of us
yesterday, seperate, in the evening…

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~This reminds me of you~

Photo by DPX

Photographer– Brandon Sanford

I wrote a lot yesterday.

Parasitus
Slowly I begin to feel it
Appreciation for this place as I go to leave
A hunger took hold, I must feed
I’ll return once I lie awake
Can’t sleep for days, or perhaps
When I fall asleep to live in dreams
Now all I can ask is miss me so
I’ll be home
To expose the womb enclosed
It has grown inside
Now watch me grow inside of you

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Personal Realm
A dozen bajillion holes in the sky
Complicating all of our eyes
I found a way to see ahead
I see you on your thrown
You’re reaching out
I’m falling in
We’ll dance until the music fades
——————–

Glowering In Your Eyes
Subtle words tell me a million stories
I’ve seen them in your eyes
Come in closer, I’m trying to find myself
In your eyes

stop wasting time with me
you’ll never see the point
criss crosses and other dots
all along the path
you’ve forgotten the rules
our race will dissolve
follow me back to the pack

A pack of my own
I’ll feel once again
I won’t return with your breed
My eyes are changing
My world is growing
Please, leave me in peace.

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Shrill
Can someone please breathe?
I’ve taken all that I can see
now I must run and hide
Before my life collides with you again
Now hear me scream
I’m erasing all my promises
Tonight I can’t bare to face you again
hear me scream?
I’m running

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Simple Design
Simple design you told me
Intricate weaves you showed me
Speak of the days- I’m lost in time
Where do you reside?
Are there peepholes in the walls?
Or translucent barriers to hold you in
Seal you inside a box
The eyes don’t harm your simple design
But mine, though simple to me,
Isn’t simple to you at all