March 6th, 2010 by R 2

March 5th, 2010 by R 2

Today was horrible. Everything went wrong.. how the fuck does that happen? It ended up turning out well… but how on earth..? Idk.. I didn’t realize so many bad things could happen in a row in one day! Bad appointment, worse appointment that was dissatisfied and left, another bad appointment, printer broke, saw an old hookup (that I have avoided) on my lunch break, got lost in Bellevue, Walmart broke my car, lost my keys with window down…drove around to find them and found out they were IN my car..with window down and people in my car, needed a new battery AND new part.. I can’t remember if I left anything out. So much bad shit kept happening today…

I need motivation.
I need a way to make money.
I need a home that’s not with parents… I need to be a big girl and do it on my own!

I’m such a dependent person! It bothers me.

March 1st, 2010 by R 2

February 23rd, 2010 by R 2

Been feeling pretty good.

February 18th, 2010 by R 2

being responsible and living life.

Can’t I just live the life of a hedonist?

February 8th, 2010 by R 2

I really need/want to get my own place. I can’t live with people anymore. They say stuff that makes me feel like a shitty fucking mom and person. I don’t have privacy.

Shitty part is the money…. I don’t make shit at Sears and now L will be sharing a room with me (because a little brat is moving in) so I don’t know how I will cam. I want to scream. I’m stuck. I want to cry, actually.

Fuck.

I don’t know what to do.

February 6th, 2010 by R 2

Things in my life have been odd.

I’ve been making decisions. Trying to get my life going. I think everything will be okay.

“You’ve got to promise not to stop when I say when..”

January 25th, 2010 by R 2

Got drunk last night and talked a LOT about life.

It pretty much sucks.. but I’m missing something. I want to see the beauty of it. Why are these eyes so temporary for me?

January 22nd, 2010 by R 2

Been setting up some photoshoots.

Let’s hope they turn out well.

I’m really kinda tired… lol

I think I’m going to go masturbate and then sleep. Goodnight.

January 21st, 2010 by R 2